A Confession To My Photographer ... A Promise To My "Self"  

tomboytgirl68 53T  
22 posts
6/30/2021 11:44 pm
A Confession To My Photographer ... A Promise To My "Self"


Yes, of course I know about "selfies" and, for these "nice older men", I have presented myself in various "cute little outfits", stages of undress and nude, as I have implied, stated previously. I have dressed to be undressed, posed by "nice persons" who have each exhibiting nothing other than "photography oriented" behavior and "accommodating" me ... resulting with me really wanting our shoot to be finished and myself "accommodating" each of them to most expeditiously "accommodate" me so I can leave with my memory card or zip drive in my hand ... a hand full of, no, a sweaty palm full of ... me, clothed and then only covered and then nude, for those who like my type.

As to my confession ... I do not and will not ever know my previous photographer's original motives, etc; (you know what I mean), but I have been such a hypocrite, ashamed of myself and deceiving myself into believing I was deceiving my photographers, that basically he or they had talked me into total nudity, etc. With self realization, understanding, I accept and respect myself more than that now.

Yes, I want to do this for the end result And yes, I am going to willfully, progressively "accommodate" ... but not for him so much as myself, to not just, you know, strip, but to admit that I almost enjoy the process of finally getting to "the point of no return" or superficially nude. I say "almost enjoying" and "superficially nude" that finally arriving at "superficially nude" I am then able to go from "superficially nude" to include being honest with myself and acknowledge my desires, totally my wishes to be "totally bare, naked" ... I want to be bare and watched, turned on and watched and thought about ... posed and photographed ... literally baiting me ... teasing myself ... and capturing me, bare and without any sense of propriety or social constraints, expressing myself with my desires, my "self".
... xox Kaycee.

HAMONMAN 62M
12929 posts
7/1/2021 11:37 am

Hey Kaycee . . thx for the email ... Mr H


tomboytgirl68 replies on 7/1/2021 2:47 pm:
My pleasure Mr. H. And you know, you have a standing invitation to correspond ... or, is this our avenue afterall.

HAMONMAN 62M
12929 posts
7/2/2021 2:49 pm

Kaycee, I can't read your emails because I'm a Std member.

Thus my comment in one of your blog posts where I knew you would see it.


tomboytgirl68 53T  
7 posts
7/4/2021 9:16 pm

Mr. H. I hate selfies cause ... I look better than they do. However, I may have something pretty soon. As to any candidates to be my photographer ... I'm beginning to think it is a "Catch 22" as don't know what I look like so why commit Just like jumping in the pool without sticking your toe in first to check the water ... and just how many people would do that. Actually, I probably shouldn't feet too bad .... what if I did have photos posted and no one showed?? Now that would be a real bummer for sure.
So how was your 4th? Molly, (my GSD) and I could see the display out our living room window over the bay ... pretty good for a little burg and Molly held her own too. You do know Mr. H that my only reason for posting is so we can communicate. That is how impressed and taken with you I am. ... xox Kaycee.


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