Happy Anniversary
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Posted:Sep 14, 2021 7:51 am
Last Updated:Sep 22, 2021 2:55 pm
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Today would have been our 5 year wedding anniversary. I was with my husband for a total of 19 years, 2 of those years actually married.
September is always a difficult month for me with my seasonal depression that I've suffered with all my life. 20 years ago there was the horrific happenings of 9/, and now coupled with the memory of my wedding anniversary and tomorrow was my husband's birthday. Besides marking the end of summer, September just has had that bittersweet depressing feel to it.
For some reason I find myself missing the old hubby more this September. The 9/ memorials over the weekend put me in a delicate emotional state and then the fond memories of the old man and our time together...I've been a mess to say the least!!
Work has been grueling because of some computer/phone glitches and that's added to the heightened frustration and depression that I find myself in.
A bright spot to the craziness of yesterday and Monday was the fact that my rheumatologist insisted that I go ahead and get the COVID vaccine booster shot. Well that was an extra hour at the doctor's office while I got my shot and had to wait the obligatory minutes to see if I had a reaction to the shot and then finally back home and back to wor
Well, an announcement email came out that those taking a COVIID booster shot entitled me to take an hour of approved leave for the shot, then up to 2 days of sick leave, approved and not counting against my personal sick leave, which I decided this morning, why not? My arm is sore and my legs feel like I'm wearing shoes made out of cement, so, I took the day off to celebrate what would have been our 5 year wedding anniversary and anticipate tomorrow's birthday celebration of what would have been my husband's 79th birthday.
Another high point of yesterday was my pussy waxing appointment. I got the pussy all smooth and slick, love the pain of that hot wax being spread all over my pussy area, lips, and then up my ass crack!! All nice and smooth and no one to feast upon it. Such is life!!!
Happy th of September 2021 to me!!!
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Crazy Mail On This Site
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Posted:Sep 12, 2021 8:09 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 3:33 pm
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Nothing like being greeted with quite a few messages here on this site telling me how a guy wants to fuck me in the ass!!! Wow, that makes me want to just drop my panties and bend over...NOT!!! Delete, delete, delete, delete, delete, delete.
I decided against spending the money on the kitchen remodel. I just don't want to get in over my financial budget and find myself wishing I had waited. If it doesn't feel right, don't do it!!!
The weather seems to be shifting a bit, heading into a more fall like feel, low humidity here in Oklahoma is always so welcomed. Makes for cooler evenings and cooler mornings.
I'm fighting my seasonal depression as September begins. I just can't shake the end of the summer blues but hey, I've lived with it all my life, another year of it finds me a bit wiser.
I'm hopeful that the college football rankings are going to be favorable to my Oklahoma Sooners...guess we will see.
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Saturday Musings
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Posted:Sep 4, 2021 7:34 am
Last Updated:Sep 5, 2021 11:36 am
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Entering September 2021, it's hot here in Oklahoma. There have been hotter summers, actually temperature wise, it's pretty typical.
Not much inspiration here in Ttown. I did see where one of the local bar and grills was reopening under new ownership recently but not sure how open they are from the signs or marquee out front. I checked their website and not any information there as to what entertainment opportunities they are offering. In the day, this bar was where to set the local Ttown FriendFinder-x meet and greets. Those were fun and interesting gatherings though most of the time there were far more men than women willing to put themselves out there and get out from behind the computer screen and actually meet live and in person.
I don't have the energy nor inclination to be at the helm of plotting and planning naughty, nasty get togethers. That was my passion at one time but that ship has since sailed and with the absence of my partner in crime, the allure is gone. While I'm open to meeting new friends in my life, spearheading local adult get togethers is of no interest to me. Let someone else put it out there and try to gather up some interest!!
Now my biggest decision is whether or not to pull the trigger and remodel my kitchen!! Decisions, decisions!!
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Sunday Reflections 08/15/2021
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Posted:Aug 15, 2021 10:36 am
Last Updated:Aug 22, 2021 5:23 pm
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Another Sunday. I've got so many projects going on around the house that I had to pause for a moment and collect myself.
I have realized that having a friend that is going through some serious mental health issues should not have checked herself out of the mental hospital she's been in for the past 10 days. She needs to go back whether she wants to or not.
I can't help her. No one can really help her other than the professionals. It is sad but I see it very clearly now, she needs to be in a structured, controlled environment until she's able to function with the aid of her meds. It's hard to see someone be taken down by their fears and worries but it is what it is. I don't know if she's even capable of knowing that she needs to go back but I'm not the one to make that determination for her.
I've requested two kitchen remodeling companies here in Tulsa to come and give me a quote. I want to get my kitchen updated to what "I" want. I am hoping it doesn't cost a small fortune but I also want this to be my signature on this house. My current plan is to remain here in this house until I'm at least 70, 6 more years. Hopefully the demand for houses in my neighborhood will remain high and I can get a premium price for it when I do get ready to sell. For the time being, I want to get this house in tip top shape.
I need to get back to one of the many projects I've got going on this weekend.
Have a great work week ahead.
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Membership Status?????
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Posted:Jul 31, 2021 11:44 am
Last Updated:Aug 10, 2021 5:15 pm
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I got an email notice that my "icebreaker" had been accepted and I have another year of "gold." What a joke!!!! The "Upgrade Now" tab remains on my profile and I can't view other members' pics.
Not that I expect this site to run any smoother than it has in the past but do I have a GOLD ball membership or not?????
In other news, it's HOT outside!!!! I can't get my swim spa water to cool down any lower than 88 degrees. Good grief!!! I did buy an end of the summer ft circle umbrella to help shade the swim spa. It's working as well as it can in 0 degree weather.
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Finally Friday
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Posted:Jul 23, 2021 6:40 am
Last Updated:Jul 31, 2021 7:18 am
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has been a crazy work week. My gateway wi-fi died on Tuesday about :00 am No lights, nothing. Smarty pants, me, decide I'm going go one of my internet provider's stores and get a new gateway device.
The joke was on me!! The stores don't carry anything to do with the internet part of their company. I would have to order that on the phone or through online...uh, hello, I can't access my internet, that's the problem!!! Oh, then you'll have to and order a new wi-fi gateway.
Shit! So, two hours later I get home and get on the phone with said provider and get a new wi-fi gateway ordered. The soonest they can get me the router is within the next 2 days. Ok. See if you can get it here faster.
Got the wi-fi gateway ordered. it arrived about 24-hours later on the next day. I get it all out of the box and hook it up. It starts flashing green that is power but is a flashing red where says broadband. Shit, again!!!
I then start a chat with said provider and am walked through all the steps and still a red flashing light for broadband. The chat then turns a technician will have assist me and the soonest a tech can be scheduled is the next morning between 8:00 am and noon. Okay. Put me down.
I had take annual leave because this is an issue on my side of the work thing, which I've got plenty of time take off, just hate that I had use on a work connected issue!!
The tech arrived promptly at 8:00 am came in and switched around some cables and announced that I had the wrong cable in the ONT slot. I told him I had tried every combination and I would get a flashing green light for about -15 seconds and then would turn red flashing. Sure enough, 30 seconds into our conversation turned red and did not turn green again.
Two hours later, new inside wiring, new inside internet box and nothing but a constant solid green light for broadband!!! Now I'm actually getting the internet speed I am paying for and is amazing how fast my work laptop brings all of my systems up AND I have had no VPN disconnects since I got back online yesterday after lunch!!! is a miracle!!!
This is the first time since I started working from home that I've had a strong internet connection. I can actually do my job and do well!!! I had forgotten how great is when everything works with the work systems!!
Hopefully, this resolves all of the connection issues I've been having since I moved home back in March of 2019 work from home. isn't any projection as when, if ever, we'll go back the office and honestly, I'm fine with working from home though it has made me rather lazy with regards getting up and looking presentable every day. I throw on clothes and grab some coffee and start working at 7:00 am
Happy Friday!!! Have a great weekend and stay safe in the July heat!!!
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Sunday Reflections 07/18/2021
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Posted:Jul 18, 2021 12:37 pm
Last Updated:Jul 23, 2021 6:11 am
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I just realized I have not visited this site in quite a while. Nothing much going on in my life other than I'm still working from home and will continue working from home as it looks as though the Delta Variant of the COVID family is starting to make an ugly appearance as we head through the summer. Doesn't look like it will be letting up as we head into Fall and the start of school.
I'm fine with working from home though work has finally hit a point of so much ridiculous protocol and requirements to be deemed "good" at the job that I've been studying how long I have to work before I can actually retire. Optimally working until I'm 70 was the original plan, but 67 is looking so much better. I think SS reflects that I have to work until 66 years old and 8 months. to draw a decent retirement from SS. There are a lot of factors involved and I'm giving them all serious consideration. My new plan as of late is to retire by the time I turn 67. I just don't think I can manage to stick it out mentally until I turn 70. I do want to be able to enjoy some of life after I retire so 67 is the new goal.
The pup is growing so fast and much. He's 7.5 months old and a handful. He's a good and I've signed us up for training here in the next couple of weeks. I think it will do us both good.
I've been trying to motivate myself to get up and around, move more but I'm not going to lie, I'm depressed. The online dating sites are a complete and total disappointment. The only man that has responded lives clear out in western Oklahoma practically to the panhandle. I started thinking about why in the world would I want to strike up a friendship with someone so far away? I ended up cancelling meeting him because I just didn't see the point of venturing any further. He may have been open to moving to Tulsa but I honestly don't want someone that is move in ready. In other words, I want someone to just go out with once in an while and spend some quality adult time with...it's a lot to ask for but hey, why not aim for the moon and stars?
Anyay, nothing new on this side of life. Have a great week ahead!!
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A New Toy!!!
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Posted:Jun 5, 2021 11:06 am
Last Updated:Jun 9, 2021 4:24 pm
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I splurged and bought myself yet another expensive self pleasuring tool/toy for my birthday!!
I purchased a LELO Soraya Wave in a deep rose color. OMG, this little rechargeable device can get me off (climax) in a matter of seconds!!! What an amazing toy to add to my collection!!!
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05/23/2021 Sunday Reflections
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Posted:May 23, 2021 4:16 pm
Last Updated:May 31, 2021 12:20 pm
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I keep hoping that the rain will finally be done and we'll get the full on of the sun, dry things up and allow get out and do some much needed cleaning up of my hedges and flower beds.
Not mention being able get out and enjoy my patio oasis. I bought an aqua bike and rowing bars for my swim spa. Now I just have get out there and utilize them. Right now the rain is preventing from finishing up final preparations for the upcoming summer months.
I still can't get over how much nicer and more private my backyard is since I got the ricket little picket fence replaced with a 6 ft privacy fence and solar powered electric gate. I am amazed at how much more safe I feel. Not that I ever really was afraid or scared be here by myself, but the new fence has made realize just how exposed my backyard, patio, side yard on the other side of the garage as well as my garage.
Work hasn't been going all that well. The requirements be perfect at the positions is becoming ridiculous. I took the next days off step back away from the insanity and get my mind straight on all the stringent processes. it might be time for me set my sights on another position within this buiness. Though I feel that I would be trading in a growing set of problems with new problems, not mention going through more grueling training. The only attractive part of subjecting myself a new position and training would be that I could draw practically another paycheck from an education benefit my husband left due his 0% P&T. There is an educational benefit that I could tap if I have go into new training where I wor Definitely makes that move more attractive.
My standard poodle puppy is growing be such a big boy. He's the sweetest and very smart. He's costing a fortune take care of with some of the issues that come with a puppy but we're getting through it and he's just the best . He's great company though I sometimes feel very tied down having him. I don't like go off and leave him, but I have learned that short periods of time apart are good for us both. Short periods would be when I go the grocery store and various other errands.
My 63rd birthday is this coming Tuesday. I've decided I will go and buy a fabulous prime beef steak and if I can find a decent lobster, I'll buy one of those. Unless I opt order take out from one of the handful of restaurants around Tulsa that I enjoy eating at and from. I will also buy myself a little chocolate cake for one. I LOVE chocolate cake!!! I've learned over the that if I want something specific for my birthday, I'm the one that has buy it and/or make it.
I find myself reflecting on the previous birthdays I shared with my husband. All the amazing, sexy, swinger parties we either attended or hosted. My 50th birthday party was probably the most notable of all my birthdays. We hosted a Memorial weekend sex fest at my husband's 80 acres in southestern Oklahoma. Folks brought their 5th wheelers, their tents and blow up mattresses, massage tables, screened in tents. There was even a couple that came in their Winebago, they called it their swinging sex mobile!! From Friday night through Sunday afternoon, there was non-stop eating, drinking, sex, sex and more sex. There were groups of people having sex, I think the most in one of those sessions was about 4 couples, 3 single guys and 2 single women. I have to laugh because it reminded me of a naked wrestling match where folks would have to wait until they were tapped in to join the naked pile!!
It was truly a birthday to always remember and cherish!! I doubt I will ever find another man that I can feel safe enough to venture forth and engage in all the naughty, nasty fun my husband and I indulged in. He was truly one of a kind!! I have learned since his death that we truly did have a relationship that was truly special. We didn't hide things from each other, we communicated and experienced and explored all the sexual activities I could come up with. Some he participated in, some he was on the sidelines cheering me on and keeping me safe. His second ex-wife did not have that. I've learned that he was much more open and trusting with me. We were truly an in-tune sexual couple.
I am fully vacinated. The second Psfier does was a dozy. I had to take 2 sick days because it killed my ample ass. But I feel that I'm now fortified against that damned COVID!! I still carry my face masks with me and have them on hand if I feel I should use them. I've been the healthiest I've been in a long time with regard to no colds or flu and certainly not the COVID. Now things are starting to open up and get back to normal, what ever that means!!!
So, Happy Birthday to me!!! I'm going to do my best to enjoy the hell out of the next few days off of work! I hope everyone has a great work week ahead and a great upcoming Memorial Day weekend!!!
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It's May 2021
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Posted:May 2, 2021 10:29 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2021 2:54 pm
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April was a busy but difficult month. I am hoping that May 2021 will be a good month. It is the month of my birthday.
I've been enjoying my patio oasis. I am ever expanding on it and am ready to buy my annual new plants/flowers to compliment the already amazing oasis.
I've got a couple of house projects to tackle over the next few months that I'm not necessarily looking forward to but they must be done. I don't want to leave a big mess for my to clean up after I die. I kknow that sounds a bit morbid but I think about the mess that my parents left me and my siblings. What a freaking mess all that was, having to clean out our parents' house, trying to sign off on anything and everything to avoid having to be financially responsible for any of the many financial issues they left behind.
Basically this all comes down to clean out closets/bedrooms, getting rid of old clothing and lots and lots of paperwork. I am at a point where I can get rid of tons of paperwork that I was keeping around just in case there was some kind of need to provide proof of ownership of my house or whatever else may crop up.
Time to move it along this fine May morning. Have a great work week ahead!!!
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MAKING PROGRESS...
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Posted:Apr 10, 2021 7:36 am
Last Updated:Apr 11, 2021 9:36 am
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I've attached a pic of the state of my patio oasis. My 4 chairs match my fire table finally arrived and they are exactly what I had hoped they would be. I've got try and take some pics of the oasis in the daylight with the cover off of the swim spa so that I can share how amazing it all turned out.
Of course, are more details that I have make, like taking down the greenhouse that I keep the massive amount of patio plants that I have amassed over the past 15 years. The plants will be the perfect accessories this perfect patio!!
I have been getting in the swim spa a couple of times a week and is fabulous. I seem sleep better after I've been out in the swim spa. Right now I have the temperature up 99 degrees for more of a medicinal use. As the temperatures start warming up I'll reduce the heat so I can get a good workout without over heating.
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LAST FRIDAY OF FEBRUARY
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Posted:Feb 26, 2021 9:44 am
Last Updated:Mar 17, 2021 8:25 am
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Thank goodness the ice and snow are gone. Unfortunately the weather delayed the pouring of the concrete pad for the swim spa until today. Then has sit or cure. I have put a deposit down on the 6' privacy fence which will be installed after the swim spa is put in place.
My new standard poodle puppy, Baker is doing great, growing so fast and has developed quite a trying personality. He's just too smart but still such a . Potty training is going slow but I think once I have the privacy fence installed and he can go out by himself whenever he wants, the potty training will be back on track.
My fire pit table came in yesterday (Thursday) and I put it together. I thought I had a fresh container of propane but it wouldn't light when I hooked up, so I'll go and get another bottle of propane and see if that will work.
It will be another week or two before the four lounge chairs that match the firepit table come in. I am hoping that by paying extra, the chairs will be put together so I won't have to do it, but at least I know I can do it after assembling the firepit table.
My patio oasis is coming together quite nicely. I'm so excited and thrilled that it is finally time for it to actually come into fruition.
I am still waiting for the last portion of the farm sale which was screwed up by my probate attorney. I keep waiting for her bill to come because she made it clear she would not be doing it for "free." Isn't that just like an attorney? Any way, she did me and let me know that her part was done and filed with the appropriate county. Now I'm waiting on the closing attorney to do his part and release the rest of the sale funds to me. He and his wife were expecting a in February, so I'm sure coupled with the weather issues, it may be a couple of weeks before I hear from him.
Baker has not learned that he can't start barking in the middle of the day because he wants something and I'm on the phone. I'm sure I'll get called down for it by my supervisor, but hey, he's just a puppy and he's still learning. I have no doubt that my will grow into a handsome, well behaved as time progresses.
I'm still working from home. really isn't any projected date that I'll be returning the office so work at home continues.
I managed keep my greenhouse plants from dying in the frigid below zero temps. I put another electric heater on a different circuit breaker so I could run two heaters at the time. worked. I didn't burn down the greenhouse or my house, so was a success. Everything looks really happy and healthy and as soon as the threat of the last frost passes, I'll be able move everything out on the patio complete my patio oasis.
Such is life in my world!!
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Checking In...
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Posted:Feb 18, 2021 10:12 am
Last Updated:Feb 26, 2021 9:26 am
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I thought I would give this site a quick browse during my day.
It snowed way too much here in Tulsa. The last I checked I have about 6 inches covering my driveway, front and back yards. Needless to say I have not even tried to go anywhere since last Saturday afternoon. I ended up cancelling any appointments I had out of the house this week because there is no way I'm going to try to get out of my driveway as well as out of my neighborhood.
The abundance of snow has prevented any further progress on my patio with the installation of my swim spa and my new patio furniture. The weather has also delayed the installation of the privacy fence around my backyard, which I am so excited over the fortress that the fence will provide, just insuring more privacy!!
I've managed to keep my patio greenhouse in tip top shape through this bitterly cold spell. I did have to get up during the night when the second round of snow, which was wet snow fell and go out and brush it off of the pitched roof of the greenhouse. I found out way back with the first wet snow that the ceiling of the greenhouse will collapse if left there to accumulate. It was just what needed to happen, though the puppy wasn't sure what to think with his human mommy getting him up and outside at 1:00 am. Then we went back out at 5: am to make sure any additional build up since 1:00 am was swept off of the roof of the greenhouse. The temperature has been around 50 degrees in the greenhouse and when the temps went down into the minus category, the heaters plugged along at 40 degrees. I was very relieved because there is no way I could ever replace all those huge patio plants. Besides the actual monetary value, there is the sentimental values. I would never be able to replace any of them!.
I did get a standard poodle puppy the first of February. While the puppy is a lot of work, I am so thrilled to have a companion again. The cat is totally pissed at me and hisses at the puppy through the wire crate I put in the hallway door so that the puppy doesn't wonder to the other parts of the house. Nothing like a ball of energy to get this old gal moving much more than I have been doing. Not to mention lifting my spirits here with this winter weather seclusion happening.
I am ready for all the snow to melt so I can get my backyard oasis back on track. I'm hoping that when my fire pit and super comfy patio chairs come at the end of next week I'll be ready to set them in place.
My sex toys that I bought for myself for Christmas are AMAZING!!! No need for a man with those beauties on the night stand!!
That's my report from Tulsa in Tulsaliza's little world!!!
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