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Are you ready to quit?
Are you ready to learn?
Are you ready to find the spark inside and let it burn?
I'm the walls that close in
I'm the words you won't say
I'm the voices you choose to keep inside
And lock away
Everyday
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I don't want to be flawless. When I go I want the cuts to show.
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Passion. It lies in all of us, sleeping, waiting.
And though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir.
Open its jaws and howl.
It speaks to us, guides us, passion rules us all.
And we obey, what other choice do we have?
Passion is the source of our finest moments.
The joy of love, the clarity of hatred,
and the ecstacy of grief.
It hurts sometimes more than we can bear.
If we could live without passion,
maybe we'd know some kind of peace.
But we would be hollow.
Empty rooms, shuttered, dank.
Without passion, we'd be truly dead.
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'Cause sometimes you just feel tired, you feel weak
And when you feel weak you feel like you want to just give up
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
And just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
And not be a quitter, no matter how bad you want to just fall flat on your face and collapse
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Music is like a tattoo,
and bands have to make music
where people are proud to wear your tattoo,
no matter what kind of music you like.
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For some, music is not just a pastime,
It’s an undeniable fact of living,
A blissful slavery of mind, body and soul.
To rise above the ashes of mediocrity is rare,
Yet the gift of song is freely handed out to anyone who cares to receive it,
Instantly shattering our daily drudgery. The path to pursue more than the usual,
More than what is safe and known,
Is wrought with time-sharpened jagged blade s that cut deep,
Blocking many from the road to something greater,
Beyond the stunted imagination of their peers. Within the veins of the few,
Passion fills every sinew with a sweet unquenchable purpose,
Calming the fear of those treacherous paths,
Though every slice burns and bleeds,
Still they take each cut
And wear the scars with pride to signal their choice,
That undying pursuit of greater joy within every cord.
And so they say – Watch me bleed
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When life knocks you down..calmly get back up, smile, and very politely, say, "You hit like a bitch."
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I’ll never show you my cards, I won’t be playing a hand worth bluffing. But when you’re running with me, you won’t be wondering why you’ve fallen.
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A failed fit
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Posted:May 27, 2016 6:08 pm
Last Updated:Oct 19, 2021 8:37 pm
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Back in Feb I met a guy off here. We seemed get along reasonably well. He came to stay the night. We went bowling, had dinner,went to the mall, then went back to the room.
I really wasn't that turned on but I gave him a chance anyway. But we did one time and that was enough. He didn't last long, barely did much to get me going. I don't think he did it on purpose, just dont think he knows much. He has only been with a couple women.
So in March there was a concert, I decided to give him a second shot since we seemed to get along as friends and first time with a new person can be awkward.
The concert was great. My one other friend came too. But after we dropped her off and went back to the hotel, the evening was just like the last time.
I pretty much decided that was it. Though I have tried hanging out with him a few times but he's always busy. I think he's just makng excuses not see me anymore so I am letting it go. Probably for the best,
No hard feelings, just not a good fit.
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Possibly why I can't orgasm..
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Posted:Mar 26, 2016 12:03 pm
Last Updated:May 27, 2016 6:33 pm
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I found out from that former fwb I had do whatever it is he did that caused my brain to shut off and feel different, perhaps on the verge of orgasm finally. Met up with a former short lived FWB
Well I was talking to another guy friend, doesn't live near me. He said I could have an impacted g-spot (whether it's actually called that I don't know) where it's deeper than normal and also not as sensitive. He said it would explain why I get most out of deep penetration and why guys that are smaller don't do much for me. Guys that are bigger are hitting it cause of how deep they can go.
Plus I remember the dude that had a 9.5 he would always hit a spot deep, a few times I felt like there was the start of something but it always went away too quick. Could've been that if he'd have concentrated on that area maybe that would have caused me to orgasm.
Whether this is what's wrong with me I don't know, but it definitely makes sense considering everything. So now I need a guy blessed in the size area and someone with experience. He also said it was something like tantric or kama sutra? I know what that all is but never have done much of it.
I hope someday I find a guy that can help me with this. If this is what's wrong, it gives me hope. Now where's the elusive guy? :\
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I swear I was dying...
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Posted:Mar 23, 2016 5:39 pm
Last Updated:Apr 7, 2016 2:53 pm
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I've been sick for a week. I was sneezing off and on last week Tuesday but nothing to be concerned of. I even took a sinus pill just in case. Wednesday I woke up and felt like I was dying. I had a fever, I was dizzy, congested, just ick. I called off work and for the next 3 days I ended up sleeping, taking medicine and trying to eat a little food to keep my strength up. But I wasn't really hungry, which is a major sign of me being sick. I don't call off, but it was all I could do to get up and go to the bathroom, and when I needed to go downstairs to get orange juice.
We had mandatory overtime Saturday so I made myself go in. They told me like 2.5 hrs in that I could go home if I wanted cause I wasn't feeling well, but I had missed too much work I was trying to stick it out. But like 3 hrs before the shift was over I was light headed and felt horrible. My one Lead said go home right now. She even messaged the manager of my center so I wouldn't get an occurrence for leaving early. When I was leaving, her and another Lead said I looked and sounded horrible and to go home and rest. I stopped and got some more medicine and orange juice, plus some dinner, then went home and crashed.
By this Monday I felt well enough to attempt work again. I probably should have stayed home one more day cause by the end of the day I had this massive headache that made me sick to my stomach. I came home and passed out. I didn't even eat dinner cause just the thought of food made me want to throw up. Thankfully Tuesday morning I felt way better. I still have a bit of a cold but the worst seems to be over, I hope.
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Could you date someone with the same name as one of your parents?
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Posted:Mar 20, 2016 8:43 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2016 4:09 pm
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My Dad's name isn't too common nowadays but once in awhile I'll come across a guy who has the same name and I'm instantly like no I can't. I usually will talk to the guy anyway, see if anything is there to pursue, and there never is. But it makes me wonder if I subconsciously sabotage it?
I'm currently talking to a guy on a dating site and we've been getting along well, seem to be pretty similar. Then we exchanged names and there's the other shoe, he has the same name as my Dad. I'm trying not to let it get to me. It's such a small thing, but it's just like always in the back of my mind. I'm gonna have to ask him if he has a nickname, cause I can't bring myself to call him by his name. I don't know if I sound stupid even saying all this but I just have a kneejerk reaction for some reason.
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Name the last movie you saw in the theater
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Posted:Feb 28, 2016 10:49 am
Last Updated:Mar 12, 2016 10:39 am
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*pic*
Just saw Gods of Egypt yesterday. I have such an interest in ancient Egypt, don't know why. So I'm probably going to be a bit biased. I absolutely loved it though. The lore and mythology was pretty spot on.
Last weekend I saw Deadpool. I'm not a comic book movie fan. Haven't seen most of those types of movies honestly. But the previews looked good, so I went to see it. Had me cracking up and I enjoyed it. Some people say it's stupid crude humor. Ah well, it wasn't meant to be a serious movie.
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All 4 seasons in 1 week...
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Posted:Feb 26, 2016 7:30 pm
Last Updated:Mar 18, 2016 9:45 am
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*2 pics*
This is for real, yesterday it was raining with no snow on the ground, few days before it was 60 degrees, and today it was 30 degrees and I had to shovel snow. Now the snow is gone again and it's supposed to be nice tomorrow. Not complaining about the nice weather but it's like Mother Nature is PMSing Majorly.
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All This Love Crap - Singles Awareness Day
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Posted:Feb 14, 2016 3:17 pm
Last Updated:Feb 14, 2016 6:19 pm
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I almost had plans today. For the first time ever. I mean I've had Valentine's plans before with friends. But this was the first time with a guy. Wasn't anything spectacular. Dinner, maybe a movie. It was our first meet. Had been talking and we got along great. He wanted same thing I did. Too good to be true, then it is.
Last I heard from him was Friday morning around 9. He was supposed to call me that night. When I didn't hear from him I texted him asking if everything was ok. Never got a reply. So yesterday in the evening I asked if today was off. Still nothing. Yeah. He's 10 years older than me and still playing these games. Then guys wonder why I'm so jaded. They say don't judge new guys cause of past guys. Kind of hard that when I do start with a clean slate they take the same damn road.
Then my friends are all "Oh the right one will come along blah blah" lmao Some people die alone, not everyone finds someone. Plus they don't know I'm just lookin for fwb. If I can't even find that I have negative 100 hope I'll ever find more. I'm not 18 anymore. I wish I could have those starry-eyed dreams back but I just get more jaded every year cause of assholes.
Before this guy I was talking to a guy in Ohio. We got along even better than above guy. Had hours long convos on the phone. He was planning on coming to see me. Then the communication dropped. He'd just text me enough to keep me holding on. Never explained why the weekend fell through and he's just busy. Yeah that's a flashback to the guy who messed with me big time late 2014 to early 2015. Not going down that road again.
*sigh* Think it's time to get another cat.
My cat that I still have, I think she knew something was wrong. Last night and today she kept laying on me. Which she's not too affectionate. Once in awhile, but not like that. She's my Valentine.
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Lesson learned - listen to your gut and support small businesses
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Posted:Feb 13, 2016 6:53 am
Last Updated:Mar 13, 2016 7:06 pm
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If something is telling you to do or not do something, listen to it! I just saved $210 by listening to that gut feeling! I almost got screwed over by a guy our warranty sent just trying to make money off me. Called a local company Krisay's for a second opinion and they said nothing was wrong with our washer beyond needing leveled (which he did, took 5 min) which Lowe's didn't even do when they delivered it in August last year and we need to use a diff detergent. Lesson learned. Support local small businesses and stay away from bigger dpt stores like Lowes. They just give you the run around and don't even do a proper job. Then blame you when something goes wrong. LISTEN TO YOUR GUT FEELING.
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